Nails on a Chalkboard

So I was registered for a class and by personal circumstances I was forced to get a new teacher. This professor is supposedly the best in the department. He's really flexible and easy going. I just have one problem. It doesn't bother me much that he swears in class, just the fact that he uses the Lord's name in vein. HOW DISTURBING. I notice EVERY time he does it. Not only the G word but the JC word too. It's dissapointing to have a teacher that is looked up to that just flys by the mouth like that.

Thats my thought of the day. PS: Today is my first day and I'm loving it. ;o)

VOP"s

Last night Tim and I were trying to decide where to go eat. It's been years since I've been to Vonochan's so I thought since it was back in action we should try it out. The second we walked in, I did NOT get a good vibe. It wasn't like I remembered it at all! As we were looking over the very broad menu, we kind of wanted to get up and leave. Then I hear a "Too Late" and the waitress was there to take our order. (I probably would have felt too bad to leave anyway..but Tim was coming up with a good plan.)

The problem I had with VOP's, besides the food was horrible...was the fact that their menu was full of choices. Not just food choices, but types of food. They had Italian, Mexican, American, Seafood....kind of like they didn't know what kind of restaurant to be. The ambiance was different too. The room was bright but yet also had candles? Tim and I were the youngest people there. But the foooooooooood.

Not that I am proud of this, but I go out to eat a lot. I have never wanted to leave food on my plate before. I am really picky and like to/need to finish my plate. Not last night. The only thing I was able to finish was my salad and prime rib. Talk about discusting mashed potatoes. Tasted like....well no taste at all actually. Cardboard. The au ju sauce was like a cup of soy sauce. I have never been so dissappointed in a meal before!

I guess next time it's Woodcutter.

One more day..

So last week I informed the AGM that this would be my last pay period of working. I was scheduled three days total these next two weeks. Two this week and one the week after. I didnt' see a point in working that one day, but I didn't say anything to her. I would make more money, and get more work done at my other job, but in my mind I would just suck it up and work that one day...

Well I get to work today noticing that the schedule has been revamped. I have been completely taken off of next week's schedule...which makes tomorrow my last day!!! (I love having things change after I make arrangements for them to work.) Oh well....I don't have to deal with this ANYMORE!! YEE-HAW!!

Hasta Le Viste Courtyard!

The Office

Okay...not THE office, but MY office. This morning I got to check out where I will be working. The office is off of Alta Rd, so right by my house. Let me just tell you that my office chair is leapord print. It's a great little office with pretty much anything I will need. My title is the National & Regional Sales Coordinator for Indepenence Media. I will have my own business cards and Nextel. Look out professional world...here I come. I start next Wednesday!

Great Post.

So I have come to the realization that this is my 100th post. Not only have I been doin the blogging thing for 100 times...if that makes sense but I have something great to blog about. God.

So I put my two weeks in at the hotel before knowing if I would get another job. Total leap of faith, right? Well I would like to say that God has provided once again and I got the job at the radio station! Look out business world, here I come!!!

Thanks all for the prayers and kind words!!! Have a wonderful Thursday!

Leap of Faith.

Today is the big day. Interview day. In order to get a business casual outfit...I don't really enjoy collared shirts, I sold a Best Buy gift certificate to a girl I work with. (I have another one for $50.00 if anyone is going to go shopping anytime soon.) Tough money times call for creative solutions. Let me just explain my leap of faith...

Yesterday, as you can tell by my blog post I was having enough with my job. It has gotten to be such a negative atmosphere where no one is happy anymore. I have the type of personality where I want to fix things, and when people aren't happy, I am not happy. It was showing in my life and attitude outside of work too. I put my two weeks notice in. Actually, I said this would be my last pay period working there, because I was scheduled one day on a new pay period and I thought that was just stupid. Anyways...so God put this desire to lift the negative weight I had been carrying and I prayed all morning. (I know its a few hours, but the desire didn't change one bit.) After I put my notice in, I felt 10x better. I was able to smile and joke around and I just felt good. I'm assuming this was God's way of letting me know He will take care of me.

Long story short, if the interview does not go in my favor today...which I will be okay knowing God will provide...I will need a new full time job, by next Friday. ;o) I appreciate any prayers...I know God is awesome.

FRUSTRATED.

Last night I was sitting in bed and it hit me. I HATE living so far away from everything. Granted, I love the house. But it's just so hard because when you are out there, alone...I go crazy! Maybe I'm just meant to be alone. I live with people, but none of us are ever around each other. If we are at home it's either for bed, or with boyfriends. I guess what sucks for me is the fact that my boyfriend purposely moved out of that house so he wouldnt have to drive that far....which means he isn't around the house much...Last night I was just extremely frustrated. I tried sleeping and waking up with a good attitude....but then I came to work.

Someone who started working the desk the same day as I did has been making the schedule. Granted with school starting, my availability is the same as it was last semester, not as flexible as Christmas break. Well with that being said I am only being scheduled one or two days a week! I went from working 24-40 hours a week to 8-16. If you are confused why I am upset about this...read my previous post about my bills. I can't afford this. It makes me want to leave this place even sooner. I just pray my interview goes well tomorrow.

God grant me peace when times make me angry.

Rain on my parade..

The hotel biz has been really hard to stick with lately. In my head I need to prepare for the real world and I don't think I'm suited for hotels. I love the people I work with. The work just sucks. The problem was I had no idea what I wanted to do. I was at work on Friday when I got a random phone call. It was a lady wanting to set up an interview to be her assistant. She works/I think owns, a few radio stations. I would be working with clients, setting up promotions, filing, and designing stuff on the computer. Very flexible hours and she seems like a great lady to work for, granted I talked to her only for 20 minutes. I got a very good feeling about this after talking with her. She even said she wasn't too concerned with my resume, which was good because I only had a rough draft of one since I never planned on needing it. (I always wanted to go to Cosmetology school after I graduated Bradley.) So the e-mail has been set, and a meeting hopefully will happen within the next week! Prayer REquest please!!

Then comes the rain. I have realized today I am financially struggling again. I'm in over my head in debt. Car payments, cell phone bills, insurance, gas, credit cards, utilities, the list goes on and on. I know God will provide for me...but what if I don't have a car to drive? See my grandparents put money towards what I owe on my car for Christmas and my birthday, so in my head at least payments to my past due balances were being made......well my buddy Selina sent me a letter today informing me again I'm still past due. Dangit. I need some major prayers that God would slap some sense in me when it comes to money. I am so quick to pick up the tab for others becuase I know they would do it for me, or invite someone to dinner to catch up and then realize afterward I could only afford bread and water.

Some people like that struggle, because it brings them closer to God. I don't have that peace.....

on a better note::I'm feeling 10x better healthwise! No more mono!

How Do You...

How do you tell someone what it takes to love.

• That life isn't all about them.
• Money doesn't buy happiness.
• Smiles and laughter only are a part to happiness.
• Life is full of temporary satisfactions.
• Just because Christians don't drink, doesn't make them dorks.
• Most people enjoy to live deeper than surface level with each other.
• Time spent is more valuable than dollars spent.

I guess you should just use words. But why do they never seem to come out right?

Children of Men

Probably the most interesting feel bad movie I have ever seen. The plot was set in 2027 and all of the women were infertile. The whole movie is nothing but blowing buildings up, shooting innocent people, and protecting the first pregnant lady in 20 years. It made me sad to think that life could end up like that. Granted, it's a little far fetched, but my vision of society in the new millenium is more peaceful, not like the movie was. The plot didn't change much after the first 1/4 of the movie, and the suspense wasn't much to keep you interested. In any words, don't go see it.

Beautiful Affirmation

Ever since Saturday I have felt back on track with God. No more hiatus. I went to New Community at Northwoods last night, and let me just tell you I left so refreshed. I know God wanted to show me a sign. It was during worship that it happened. In the row in front of where I was sitting there was this girl. She had to be 4 or 5 years old. Like any little kid wants to do when they are in a large area she was standign on her chair so she could see. The song "Blessed Be Your Name" came on and thats when it happened. This innocent child spread her arms open and began to worship. She would use sign language on the parts she knew but other then that she was signing loud to the Lord with her arms open in surrender. I have never seen anything so beautiful, so outstanding. It brought tears to my eyes, enough that a few fell down my face. The mother looked at her daughter, smiled and looked around to see if she was causing anyone elses' attention. When she caught my eye I smiled and she hugged and kissed her daughter in a way to show me that she too thought it was beautiful.

I have never left a service at Northwoods so uplifted. As Cal talked about the aim for the church beginning this new year, I was excited. I pray that his dreams are fulfilled in that church and I know I want to be there to see it happen. As if church wasn't exciting enough, we had a great campaigners last night! We discussed being a new creation in Christ and the old has gone. We each were able to physically get rid of our past and project what we'd see in the future. I love those girls.

My reason to smile: God.

The Mummy

I know, I don't post for a few days, and I have two in a span of a few hours. Let me explain:

I work back to backs maybe once or twice a week. (Thats where I work 3-11 at night and I come back at 7am the next day.) Well I have been sick and last night was my first of two back to backs this week. I decided to take some medicine to help me sleep and I took Sudafed since I was out of Nyquil. Being stupid I read the box afterwards and it said "non-drowsy". Great. I won't be able to sleep. Well I decided to take one of my muscle relaxers after checking to make sure it was okay to mix the two. They usually knock me out in no time. Well I started to get drowsy and went to lay in bed. After my nightly prayers, which usually make me pretty sleepy as well, my mind was still awake. This trend lasted until I got up this morning. My body was heavy and comfortable but my mind was racing. I thought about the most random things!! Here's an example:

1. When I was going to get my car fixed.
2. What bills I had to pay.
3. My resume (yes, I started writing it in my head)
4. I was playing Spider Solitare in my head.
5. Singing, "Somethings Gotta Give" by Leann Rhymes
6. Actually thinking when I have to start school, and arranging 6 more credit hours before then.
7. My future family. (tried picturing my house and kids...)
8. Sheep. Didn't work.
9. Flowers...don't know why..

I am now at work, still feeling the effects of the 12 hour Sudafed....I know it's my birthday and all but all I want to go home and do is either sleep or clean. How lame am I.

My new addiction

As most of you know, well you do if you read my blog....work is kind of slow during this time of year. Okay, I lied it seems to always be slow during the days. We try to create projects or other things to keep us busy, but none seem to do so and make the day fly by. Well I am going to admit, I found a new addiction. Spider Solitare. I have played it before but lately it intrigues me. I am challenged by the two suit twist on regular solitare. At first I just started a few rounds by doing one suit and it was too easy. So I chose the two suited game and let me just tell you I don't think there is a trick to figuring this one out. It's so challenging which makes you want to start a new game whether you are able to complete it or not. So if anyone is looking for something to pass the time, try Spider Solitare and it'll rope you in. I swear.

Brain fart from life..

So there has been so much going on in the past month that I have taken a sebatical from life it seems. I just have become a hermit. 3 major items.

1. Truck for sale. Talk about a lousy buy. It however has gotten me from A to B for the past year, but also has lead me to broke. I finally had my first car issue the past few weeks. My right rear wheel bearing has seen it's last day. I've gotten two estimates with an average somewhere between $450-$600. Holy cow! So I got a name of an independent mechanic who does work for cheap cash. I know, I should have thought something was fishy when I dropped it off and there was no business name on the garage. But hey, he was going to charge me $60.00 in labor and I bought the replacement kit at some parts store. After 5 hours went by and I still hadn't gotten a call saying it was ready, I called him, told him to just put things back the way they were and I was going to take my truck back, broken and all. Unless anyone has any mechanic friends that will change the wheel bearings on my 2002 Ford Explorer, I'm sucking it up and making an appointment at the Ford dealership...

2. I graduate college in 5 months. CRAP! I have come to the realization that I will be soon joining the work force...but my problem is, I have never had to really apply for a job. I don't have a resume, although on paper my work ethic looks stellar. Jobs have always just fallen in my lap before. I am not so sure I am feeling called to be in Youth Ministry anymore. But then again I think I've been ignoring God so we'll see if it comes back since I've realized the error of my ways. Anyone know of any jobs, no insurance claims (Sorry Justin.) I'm great at working with people, typing, selling....pretty much anything I put my mind to. I'm fun, well if you are reading this you probably know that anyway ;o)

3. I've been ignorant to what God has been telling me. Not anymore. Lately in my heart I've been feeling battle. I have been accepting of things that aren't typical and that go against what I know I need. I can't do that anymore and nothing is as important to me as following my God who died for me. I've come to the realization that I can still be a 'cool Christian' but I can't let my actions lead me from my beliefs. I want to feel God smile. And if thats losing people in my life I know God has his plan. Although I am not ready to throw in the towel I'm taking my own direction, if other's follow...then so be it.

Thats my fart in a nutshell. (That sounds sooooo disgusting but I'm delerious from boredom at work!!!!!)

My reason to smile: I will be the ripe old age of 22 on Monday....and I for once don't have any expectations. I love it.